OVER FATIGUE

Can't think of a good way on how to start writing these thoughts which kept on bugging my innocent slightly- green mind . Nah baby this is not about that dirty stuff you're thinking. Hmmm...I'm kinda depressed and in pain right now. My judgment had been clouded by negative outlook in life. If I could only shout and tell the world to stop revolving even just for a second, I would. I dunno what's happening nor why I'm feeling this way. I'm confused...I'm lost...I'm damned. Yesterday I did it again...I felt it again. If only he knew the real score why I kept on acting this way--being angry with him and with his kittens. God knows how I hate this feeling. I want this out of my system. I want to be free from hate, anger and envy. Yes I envy you and I'm sorry, I really am. And because of this I want to detach myself from anyone...to everyone. I want to be alone coz I want to exterminate this sinful feeling. I want to have a loving heart. I want to shoo these ugly thoughts away. I want to feel alive again. I want to feel appreciated. I'm not selfish, I just want to be happy.

tintin 04/15/16 