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      It's Christmas, but everybody was at their peaceful hibernation except of course of one soul—mine. The rain outside caused by tropical depression Ursula killed the excitement in everyone's heart. Imagine, it's Christmas so it's natural for you to expect that this day will be a fun-filled celebration, but here you are, worrying that later on with this non-stop rain, soon, flood will be approaching.

     The blinking colorful Christmas lights which is near to where I am seated caught my eyes. As I look at it, million of familiar emotions rushed in, but I can't describe what am I feeling today. Am I happy? All I know is that right now, my heart is at ease. There are plenty of things which I should be thankful of, so I guess I should be happy.

     Coldness started to hug me as I nonchalantly rest my body on the wooden couch. Everything has changed in time and gladly, I am able to adapt to that change. Little by little I am preparing myself to something big, something special. I know I may be selfish at some point in time, but please understand that it's my way of coping up with what is happening inside of me. There is this void in my heart I can't seem to fill. I ended up hurting some people, because of selfishness...of being self-conceited and arrogant. I am afraid, I am so afraid of almost everything. No, I'm not broken hearted, but a lost warrior. But eventhough I lost my compass, still I am moving forward. I am conquering heights and fears. I am trying to be a better and compassionate child of God. I may be hellbound, but I want to defy the odds. Because after all, change in a proactive and positive way is the best Christmas gift one could give to himself/herself.