BITTERSWEET

"Are you happy?" I was caught off guard upon hearing this question. Well, Am I happy?

Am I happy?

This girl here distanced herself from those who are important to her—from her friends. Do you have any idea kung gaano kahirap ang wala kang makausap? I have to embrace the idea that I only have myself. Facebook deactivation had been my habit. Little by little, I withdrew myself sa mata ng mata taong kakilala ako. I was so devasted sa lahat ng bagay, sa career, personal na buhay and of course with my love life😉. Nawindang ako sa mga ganap. Lol

The only weapon I had were my tears. I cried sa idea na kahit gaano ko man kagustong ibalik ang nawala, hindi na pwede. I had sleepless nights. Karma slapped me badly and turned my system upside down. I had flings, naging laman ng dating site, just to ease the pain. I was hurt so much, so I got so busy building walls and distancing myself from madlang peepz. 

You see I had tough years bruh. Little by little I got so busy sa pagbuo sa sarili ko. I let go of some things, emotions, and even people. I thought hindi ako aabot sa puntong to, but time heals. God heard my prayers. Nawala na yung bitterness, yung pagsisisi, yung sama ng loob, yung halos lahat ng negative. One day nagising na lang ako na at ease na ulit yung puso ko. Right now, I'm busy sa pag collect ng mga walls na hinarang ko para sa ibang tao.

So if your question is "are you happy?" I'll smile at you sweetly because my dear, YES, I finally am. 💕